Thankful!

  I have quite a lot to be thankful for this holiday season. I am so very thankful for my husband and everything he does for us so that we can be together so often! I take for granted the amount of time we are able to spend together as a family. I am extremely thankful to have such a sweet little girl, whose "issues" go no further than an occasional, typical, 2-year-old attitude. She is my world. I could just sit and watch her every minute of every day. Last, but not least, I am thankful to have a healthy little baby growing inside me. We got the test results back from Cory's cystic fibrosis test... he is NOT a carrier! What a relief. To add to the joy, I got to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time on Wednesday. Again, thankful, thankful, thankful.

Too much for myself alone

  Last week, I feel as though my nerves hit a breaking point. Often, I feel like I carry way too much weight on my shoulders. I find myself to be an extremely stressed-out person. I wish I could be as laid-back and easygoing as those few unnamed people close to me, but that's just not me.
  Last Friday, I got a call from a nurse at Good Sam, informing me that I tested positive as a carrier for Cystic Fibrosis. I knew very little about this or the test - so of course the nurse (not so friendly, mind you) proceeded to tell me that if my child is born with the disease, he/she may die young or never live a normal life. Way to scare the pants off of me! I don't know if any of you moms reading this have ever had the test results explained to you (They were never explained to me until this day), but basically if you're a carrier, your husband has to get tested. If your husband is not a carrier, there is no chance that your child will be born with cystic fibrosis. If he is a carrier, your child has a 25% chance of being born with the disease.
  After getting off the phone and calling my husband to inform him that he needed to go straight to the hospital to get tested, I was finally able to process everything. Why hadn't I been tested with Mia? What if Cory's positive, and Mia was just fortunately born without the disease? I know that asking myself these questions over and over aren't going to do anything but kill me slowly over the next 5 days that we wait for test results to come back.
  At the end of a long day crying, worrying, and being angry, I did something that I don't do enough. I prayed. I didn't pray that the test results would come back negative - I prayed for the strength to handle what was to come next. And miraculously, a weight was immediately lifted from me. I have one beautiful, healthy, smart, amazing child...who's to say I won't have another? I cannot let "possibilities" rob me of the joy I have for the new life I'm carrying. No matter what happens, I know I am surrounded by love and will make it through any circumstance.
   If any of you moms reading this have ever found out you are a carrier, I'd love to hear about it!

Attention!

I have a very exciting announcement to make:

We are expecting another baby! 

It's been tough keeping it a secret for the last few weeks, but I am now happy to share the news.

   To be perfectly honest, the last few weeks have been difficult - between the sickness and the cloud of miscarriage hanging over our heads, we've been down during a what should be a very, very happy time. However, with prayer and the support of loved ones, our fear and anxiety is quickly turning into joy and excitement. We feel so blessed!

Hello!

I'm still here.. I am!
Why did I have to go and delete facebook? Now I'm dying to have it back.
There are some big things going on in the Taylor household.
So big that I thought facebook would have to take a backseat.
Now, I'm bored and lonely. And facebook beckons.
We'll see how much longer I last without it!

Nobody's Gonna Steal My Sunshine

:)

That's all.

Status Quo

Is that how you even spell "quo"?

I haven't written in here for quite some time. Probably because I feel that there isn't anything to write about!

I've been spending the last few weeks trying not to stress out.

I've been making sure to clean the house every morning (instead of only on Sundays)

...and I don't know about you, but a clean house makes for a stress-free Kayla. 

Cleaning house has literally been all I've had going on.

I've pretty much realized that things don't always go according to plan - not everything can be on MY time. Don't get me wrong... I'll give it my all, but I realize that doing so doesn't always make things happen when you'd like. I think I've learned to be okay with that.

I've gotten caught up in the "now-now-now", and I'm pretty sure I've driven my husband nuts over it. This is where the cleaning-the-house-every-day comes into play... It makes me appreciate what we do have even more, instead of worrying about what we don't.

This post was bo-ring. But honestly, this is what is going on right now. Minimal stress, minimal plans, just enjoying the beautiful weather and the time I get to spend with my fam.

Plans

Mia loves her daddy. A whole bunch.

And her daddy sure loves her!

It's no secret that I married a very sensitive man.

And it kinda sorta warms my heart that he and Mia are so close.

(Although I'd like a little momma's boy, too..please)

I'm having a thankful day/week.

It's unfortunate that sometimes life throws you curveballs 

and you feel unable to be so positive.

A good friend told me recently, "You think too much."

Truer words could not be spoken!

It's always good to have a plan, but you can never plan enough.

I've always been an over-planner, and life still surprises me.

I think it's time for me to stop "thinking" so much, 

and start appreciating everything around me!

Like this sweet little photo up top.

Things will happen when they're meant to happen!